Very Good Advice

Doorknob: Simply impassible.
Alice: You mean impossible?
Doorknob: No, impassible. Nothing’s impossible!

-From Disney's Alice in Wonderland

Such an important thing to remember!

Well, after the eventful return from Tokyo and the emotional wreck she became after the seemingly simple placement test, the last few days of class and preparation have been... a little difficult. When you care about something a lot, and want to do your best at it, it is hard (for her at least) to cope with the idea that you are much farther from the progress point you wished to be at than you thought (contrariwise....). Times like this tend to make her so anxious that she feels as if she's shaking out of her skin, or that all of the air is being imploded inside of her chest. And it seems as if no matter how many times she tells herself (or hears from others) that there's nothing to worry about, to just do her best and then whatever happens, happens she can't not let it get to her. She agonizes over decisions, can draw up multiple arguments on multiple sides, can see emotionally and objectively what the best decision is.... the execution is just a little shaky. And, unfortunately, she gives herself very good advice, but she very seldom follows it (unless, it seems, she's beat over the head with it enough times by sound sources....).

She's getting to the point where she can keep moving forward, and can make a decision. And through agonizing over it, and still worrying about it, she's starting to see the truth in the words that "nothing's impossible". She can't know all of the outcomes of a situation, and worrying about what may be or could be when she has no control over it isn't productive (again... this is very good advice, so she's not going to be perfect in the execution~).

So, we'll just see where things go from here.

On a much lighter note! She and Katie will be living together in a home stay that is only two stops away by train to JCMU! The Okaasan loves to cook and the Otoosan is an artist. How perfect <3